Something I never thought I would post about....
This past year has taken me on quite the journey of discovery. One of these days I plan on blogging the entire thing- the how's and why's of it, but for now I will just document the fact that this month brought us to this point.
The girls and I resigned from our old church. I went back and forth between whether I cared enough to do it or not, but my girls both made it very clear in December that it was a step they wanted to take. I made sure Doug was okay with it (he is no longer a believing member either, but isn't sure he wants to do this), and then I did it.
Honestly, it was such a great feeling. Like the main girl in Seven Brides for Seven Brothers, I expected to feel bad or sad. I waited for a feeling of regret to come. But it didn't. I felt lighter than I had in years. I felt celebratory. It was not closure exactly, because I don't think you can come out of a high-demand religion and have closure easily, but it made me feel like I had made a step in the direction that I want to go. They can't count us as numbers anymore. And that felt good.
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